It's My World and Y'all Just Live In It!

2010-11-04T08:55:00.001+08:00

And the part that burdens me the most? Not even death can save me from this.

2010-03-15T04:10:00.000+08:00

How do I get the fuck out of this hell hole?

2010-03-15T03:24:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot about that this was a place I could always run back to.

If I wish really hard? Will I be given the life reformat that I need? Back to zero. Fresh install. I want to start my life all over again.

Now that I think about it, I don't like how I turned out to be--PHYSICALLY, emotionally, intellectually. To say that I am starting to hate myself is such a strong statement, but I'm afraid that quite sums it up.

I wish there was an easy way to fix every wrong detail about me, but there isn't; there never was.

Wearing Pink

2010-03-02T12:39:00.001+08:00

Pink don't always work for everyone.

Polka Dots

2010-03-02T12:35:00.002+08:00

I like Polka Dot clothing, even when it's not the New Year's.

Especially when it's not the New Year's.

2010-01-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

Right now, I just need my mother..

2009-11-18T17:34:00.001+08:00

Kuya Randy was right all along, wasn't he? I should've stayed away from Plurk long ago. Too bad I had to learn it the hard way. Oh well, atleast I learned.

2009-10-25T16:06:00.001+08:00

I hate how some people exert so much emotion in grieving over cheating lovers and the like, when in the first place the solution is already right in front of their faces. There are far bigger things to be depressed about than some stupid boy and your fucked-up relationship.

I say so because I've been in both places, and one definitely has no worth against the other.

2009-10-23T20:48:00.001+08:00

How. I don't know.

2009-10-23T20:24:00.001+08:00

WHY. :'(

2009-10-12T16:47:00.001+08:00

I'm so tempted to write to Wish Ko Lang. I've never been this desperate for help.

I'm praying that my hopes won't fade.

2009-10-12T09:27:00.001+08:00

No one, and I mean NOT A SINGLE LIVING THING should ever go through what she's going through right now.

Why the fuck am I getting the feeling na ako lang yung empathetic dito? Dahil ba ako, kami ng kapatid ko yung inalagaan nya all these years, at kayo hindi kaya we're not on the same wavelength? Tigilan niyo na kakasabi sakin na tanggapin na lang na duon na papunta yon. IT JUST CAN'T BE. Not when I know very well na may paraan pa. Nakakausap pa nga niya tayo eh! Nakakakain pa sya! Okay pa sya, yung "sugat" lang talaga yung problema. Tapos sasabihin nyo hayaan na lang na ganun? PUTA. Eh kung kayo kaya yung nasa kalagayan niya?

I just can't go with your advice that it's just how it is. I can't. Not now. And probably not ever. Because IT'S FUCKING NOT. There's still a way. This is too unfair for her. I will look for it.

2009-10-09T11:01:00.000+08:00

Hay.. Lord.. Kayo na po bahala.

2009-10-05T08:41:00.001+08:00

Bakit wala ako dun? :/

Ang aga ne'to, ha.

A Million Thoughts in Mind with No Words to Write

2009-09-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

I lifted my hand, palm facing upwards. I was initiating a high [?] five as you walked forward to greet me. I assumed you would respond by slapping it.

But you didn't. You were about to, but you hesitated. It got cut off by.. I don't know what.

Instead, you resorted to a subtle grip.

I felt the tension in our fingers.

I quickly pulled away.

AWKWARD.

2009-09-14T13:33:00.003+08:00

First boyfriend? No. First "love", first guy to ever introduce me to his family, first I-don't-care-if-I'm-crying-in-front-of-my-dad breakup? Yes, yes, and yes.

There was tension in the air. I don't think it was because the feelings that used to be there ARE still there, because clearly (atleast for my part) they're long gone, but probably because the concept of US will always be there. Even among our friends. It's in the history books, and everytime you re-read it, it takes you back in time when Me = You is all there ever was.

And probably because we both knew that it could have been US again, if I just chose to. A month before he got married, he was still sending hints that he wants me back, just like what he was inconsistently doing a couple of years after our breakup. I chose to ignore them for very obvious reasons, and which reasons he has just proven very right.

I don't want awkwardness, I just want us to be plain, platonic friends. I JUST WANT US TO BE NORMAL, ORDINARY, NON-DIFFERENT. But I guess that'll never ever work.

2009-09-03T11:37:00.000+08:00

Man, I am wanting this more and more.. This sucks.. :|

2009-09-02T16:51:00.001+08:00

Lord, I know you will help me with this. I know you'll give this to me. PLEEEEEEASE. :|

2009-08-24T15:08:00.000+08:00

WHATEVER. :'(

2009-08-21T11:46:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I bought a 1gb 2nd gen iPod shuffle as our birthday gift for tatay. I was actually looking for the 1st gen so I could purchase for the same price range with higher memory, kaso phased-out na pala yon LOL. And even the 2gb 2nd gen is defunct as well. Or is it just in Trinoma? Anyway.. He actually deserves more than that but that's all I can afford at the moment. Naawa kasi ako when he asked me to transfer mp3s in his old phone pero hindi kasya kahit isang mp3, kahit nagbura na sha ng files hahahaha. I'm so excited to give it to him. I want to hand it to him already but I guess I should just wait til his birthday on Monday. :)

If you're planning to buy an iPod, buy in Digital Walker! Other stores price theirs similar to Power Mac Centers. Mas mahal by 300 bucks. What I bought in Pods-Digital Walker had a price tag of 2,650php but when I was about to for it 2,500 na lang daw kasi cash! Napa-thank you Lord talaga ko kasi what I just spent was my allowance for the coming weeks. Hehe. Bye.

2009-08-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

I completely ignored a red light last time. But maybe it's time to pay attention to it now. This second red light, straight-up and fulgent, hard to ignore.

Thank you, Lord. I knew that eventually, this has got to stop.

2009-08-13T14:35:00.001+08:00

Look who's behind me:

It's Defense secretary Gilbert Teodoro!!!!!!!! Hahaha. And our stack or gazillions of bond papers cuz that's how we roll. Wala akong magawa. Pota. Wala nanaman yung boss ko dahil highblood nanaman. I think he's on the verge of quitting; this job is taking too much out of him. :|

2009-08-11T15:32:00.001+08:00

Sobrang palubog na ng palubog sa burak yung reputasyon ni PGMA. Hindi pa nga namamatay yung Le Cirque dinner issue, nabalita pa/na kahapon yung plastikan nila ni Erap dun sa isang wedding sa Cebu. EH. >:(

May Baboy Sa Jeep Kahapon

2009-08-11T12:58:00.024+08:00

I was about to board my second to the last jeep ride on the way home yesterday. I stepped on the platform, chose to sit on the second seat immediately from the door, in between a man and this certain lady. Or pig. Okay, fat lady. Because there was still space, of course the usual passenger instinct would be to sit there since it was nearest the non-existent jeepney door. It was enough to fit a regular-sized person, so I do not understand why this extra-large bitch had to be so annoyed when I sat beside her. After hesitatingly nudging a bit away from me (because it seemed as if nasisikipan sha), she annoyingly told her companion, "Kainis kasi dito pa umupo! Usod ka nga blahblah!" Surprised at the attitude I just heard, I shot a look at her with a WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU face, and she actually had the guts to annoyingly look at me too. I turned away and made a mental note that I should not make patol--there are two of them and they're both big women so obviously, talo ako pag lumaban ako. So I just braced myself for this jeepney ride from hell.

The worst part is that the trip lasted for almost an hour, and during the entirety of it she really took every chance she can to sit sideways. As in ganito: --which I do not understand if such was done intentionally just to annoy me, or she was just really inconsiderate like that. I mean, she's fat, so, seated properly, she already occupies space that would fit two passengers. I really couldn't do anything but wait til I reach my destination, and I had to apologize to the person sitting on my other side since naiipit na din sha dun sa dulo ng jeep. Sabi ko na lang, "sorry ho ah dalawa ata binayad nito eh," as audible for her as possible. But to no avail. As in wa sha kebs. FML moment talaga for that man being sandwiched by me and the jeep rails.

I'm finally about to alight (FINALLY TALAGA MYGAD). Before I went out of the vehicle, I shifted sideways, pushed myself backwards tapos inatrasan ko sha. Sabay baba ng jeep LOL. I heard her say "tarantado to ah!" but pretended that I didn't, acted like I was innocent and kept walking while trying to stop myself from smirking. The jeep waited for some passengers to aboard so I was getting ahead of them, and when it finally sped off, just when they reached where I also already was, I swear I heard her scream "HOY!" HAHAHAHA. Again, I pretended not to have heard a thing. I actually foresaw that she was going to do something of that sort as revenge for what I did, and thought that if she does I'm gonna give her the finger and do the oinkoink poke on my nose. But I figured that ignoring her would be better, because then she looked like a stupid skwater na palengkera who screams at people in a public place, while on a moving public vehicle. How much more jologs can she get, right. Kahit magwala sha dun wala naman shang mapapala, mukha lang shang tanga. :))) Kung matapang sha talaga dapat bumaba sha ng jeep at sinugod nya ko. Kayang-kaya naman nya ako kasi balyena sha eh. But no. All bark and no bite. Or more appropriately.. All OINK AND NO BITE HAHAHAHA :P

The worst part is, I overheard her and her companion talking about their families, and I could not imagine how someone so ill-mannered like her could have a family. Goodluck talaga sa mga anak nya, sana wag lumaking katulad nya, morally and physically LOL. And they actually had the nerve to complain about this student they rode with in the jeepney the other day; ang arte arte daw kasi pati ng pag-upo, ang sarap daw sapakin. THE NERVE TALAGA POTA. Ikaw, babaeng mataba na naka-gray, na nasa jeep galing Monumento at around 6pm kahapon, na bababa sa IS Bangkal, na may kasamang babae na naka-red, UGALI MO TE HA. Sa totoo lang wala kang karapatan mag-inarte dahil kung nasisikipan ka sa inupuan mo kahapon, di ko kasalanan yun kaya wag mo kong artehan dahil kahit sino pa iupo mo sa tabi mo sisikip talaga kase ANLAKI MO EH. Sana maging considerate ka naman. Ang laki na nga ng space na na-o-occupy mo umaarte ka pa. Buti nga isa lang pinapabayad sayo eh. Ugali mo te. Sana wag ka tularan ng mga anak mo! Mataba + inconsiderate sa pag-upo: ultimate jeepney passenger from hell ka FYI!

I hope never to encounter anything similar to this again. Sobrang BV, sayang sa emozyon!

(edit)
Okay I realized this post might have been inconsiderate in itself, and a bit tactless. But just to clarify, this isn't supposed to be against fat people [kapal ko naman e antaba ko din], rather, how annoying and irritating it is to have to encounter such an irrational reaction from someone IN somewhere inappropriate. Mag-inarte sha ng ganun kung nasa bahay nya sha or nasa sarili nya shang sasakyan, diba? Kaso hindi eh. Public transportation yun. Di nya pag-aari. Kupal kasi ako sa kupal sakin, hence, the tactlessness and anger in this post. This isn't meant for anyone else but her. Tae sha.
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2009-08-10T16:04:00.001+08:00

Excited like a kid who's about to open a Christmas present. EEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHH >:)

2009-08-10T09:23:00.002+08:00

Jalapeno-flavored Corned Beef, green mangoes dipped in sugar, ice cream on milk, Chicken Cordon Blue, pork Sisig, and pizza rolls.

Motherfucker.

I Was Right!

2009-08-03T15:01:00.003+08:00

READ http://chuvaness.livejournal.com/660280.html IN RELATION TO THE ENTRY BELOW.

2009-08-01T09:50:00.007+08:00

I was planning on posting something else, but, yeah.
This isn't quite a morning you would want to wake up to. Cancer sucks so bad; I hope someday it gets a dose of its own crap.

"I am not embarassed to tell you that I believe in miracles."

When my mom felt she was on her last days, she expressed that if she would die, she wanted it to be on a Saturday, because it is a day for Mama Mary. And she did. A miracle always happens especially to those who believe in it even if the situation tells you otherwise. August 1, 2008 at 3.18am on a Saturday, Pres. Cory Aquino comes home, and I can almost picture her being welcomed with open arms by Mama Mary. :) She has always been a symbol of justice and righteousness in this country. She has had suffering more than what's required for one's lifetime, it is now time for her to be rewarded.

I txtd ate Lani extending my condolences to her and Senator Noynoy, and here's her reply:
"the family is much appreciative of your heartfelt sympathy. thank you daw."

I feel so sad about this that it bothers me. Strange. Well, I guess that's how much she has penetrated into the lives of each and everyone of us. Look at how gloomy it is outside.. Even the skies are mourning this loss.

2009-07-30T10:58:00.001+08:00

Sobrang sama lang ng loob ko. Tangina. Di ako makapag-isip ng maayos.

2009-07-30T10:48:00.000+08:00

I'm not just gonna sit around and watch your whole life crumble into pieces.

I wish I was strong enough to save you.

2009-07-24T09:10:00.002+08:00

Sobrang lala ng ubo ko today. I think one of the reasons why this cough wouldn't go away eh kasi natutuyuan ako ng pawis. I was advised to take this day off and just stay at home pero sayang din kasi weekend naman na. Hardworking employee... NOT. Wala naman din kasi akong gagawin sa bahay, wala naman din akong ginagawa dito, so better na pumasok na lang din, atleast wala akong absent! Hehe.

What should I tweet Jamie Oliver? I have a lot of things to say, but when it comes to people I like.. I'm speechless. :))

2009-07-22T07:59:00.002+08:00

I'm back to where I belong. Haha. It feels sooooo good to come home again. For some reason, I feel less tired when I go home to our home, kahit gano pa sha kalayo. I find it odd but my bed really seems to have a detoxifying power like nothing else. Valenzuela may be far, very polluted, and the traffic so heavy you want to kill each and every jeepney and bus driver, but it's my home, and I wouldn't want it any other way.

Minsan, sa sobrang hassle magcommute lalo na sa umaga at inaantok-antok pa ko, gusto ko na lang pagulungin yung sarili ko kase struggle lang talaga maglakad. Kung pwede lang sana na gumulong at tumalbog talbog na lang instead sa lumakad.

Mas madali siguro umakyat-baba ng stairs. *boing boing boing*
"Pare malapit lang yung, rolling distance lang." *boing boing boing*

Eh.

2009-07-20T13:54:00.000+08:00

Relapses suck!

2009-07-18T23:05:00.003+08:00

I miss you so much. I miss you every single day.

What hurts the most is knowing that the void you left will forever be irreplaceable.

I can never move on. I never will.

I miss you terribly.

2009-07-17T15:31:00.001+08:00

HOMAYGAD.

LORD, TAMA PO BA 'TONG MGA NANGYAYARI???

Gusto kong mag-thank you pero nabibigla ako eh!?! Hahahahaha? :-SSSSSSSSSS

2009-07-17T11:11:00.003+08:00

Never in my life had I wished for aircon to be gone. My fingers are fricking purple right now and I have no choice but to endure. THIS SUCKS.

On the other hand.. My attempt to make Philly Cheesesteak was a success! It was Phillycious! ULUL. I call it Beefsteak Cheesesteak tho, because I used the excess marinaded beefsteak I brought from home.

INGREDIENTS:
Butter
White onions, thinly sliced
Garlic, minced
Mushrooms, thinly sliced
Beefsteak leftovers [thinly sliced and uncooked; Philly Cheesesteak usually has thinly sliced Rib-eye steak]
Quickmelt cheese or Cheez Whiz

*The slices of onions, mushrooms, and steak should as much as possible be equal.

PROCEDURE:
1. Melt a good chunk of butter on medium heat, just enough to coat all your ingredients.
2. Saute garlic. Then the onions. Then the mushrooms. About 6 minutes or until caramelized.
3. Set the sauteed vegetables aside.
4. Saute beefsteak leftovers until cooked. If it is too salty [since it's marinaded in soy sauce], just add a couple of spoonfuls of water until saltiness is reduced. Adding a teensy bit of sugar also works. Keep in heat until liquid disappears.
5. Add the sauteed vegetables previously set aside. Stir.
6. Reduce heat. Top with Quickmelt cheese/ Cheez Whiz and let it melt a little.
7. Serve in warmed hotdog sandwich buns.

Things I Gotta Do Before I Die #2

2009-07-15T09:05:00.001+08:00

Witness a midnight sun. Good luck.

Things I Gotta Do Before I Die #1

2009-07-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

Witness an Aurora Borealis/ Australis. Goodluck.

2009-07-14T10:03:00.004+08:00

Teaser photos from a random shoot Larry and I did at his home, just because. I was never the type to give in to photoshoots as a subject, but Larry is Larry; he can turn the seemingly irrelevant, un-picture-worthy into the most amazing photos.

2009-07-13T10:37:00.004+08:00

Paskuhan 2007 photo from Janna. I posted this not to distract you with Tan's very demure outfit that night, but because I can't help but notice how drastically things have changed. I'm remarkably thinner and fairer here! And my feet, my feet! They're all nice and pedicured! I look at my feet now and I am disappoints. :|

2009-07-13T09:26:00.000+08:00

Wishing a veeeeeery happy birthday for my social climber friend, one of the best people I have, Isha! I love youz!

Superfan Mode On.

2009-07-11T17:09:00.004+08:00

It's the second most wonderful time of the year again!

2009-07-10T08:32:00.001+08:00

"Hindi kami magbabayad ng singkwenta sentimos para sa isang kilong bulok na kamatis!"
- A concerned citizen, saying that SLEX's toll fees should be obliterated since it's now pretty much a non-express expressway.

So far, this is what I have done in the office:

2009-07-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

2009-07-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

ME: Pano po yan e kanina pa ko walang ginagawa? Baka po pagalitan ako.
SGT.: Bakit ka naman papagalitan? Hindi ka papagalitan. Ganyan talaga. Ok lang yan. Tignan mo nga 'tong Friendster ko, kasi ayaw.......

LOLZ MUCH?

2009-07-05T15:38:00.001+08:00

I didn't get in to Cathay because God clearly has something else planned for me.

I'll be leaving the house in a few hours and I feel.. Extremely sad. Even though I'll only be gone for the weekdays. Kahit na. I'm someone who can't stand being away from this house for too long. It drives me crazy in ways you won't believe. LAZLAZ NA KO.

BYEEEEEEE :'(

2009-07-04T11:23:00.003+08:00

Working alone depresses me. What more could working WITHOUT internet, not even a computer, do to me?? PANO NA YUNG FARM KO??? HUHUHUHU.

The next 6 months are gonna be very challenging. I'm like fish out of water; I have not imagined a life without the internet. KMN.

2009-07-01T19:22:00.002+08:00

Most definitely, not me! I've taken 89473894 cough and common cold medication but they're still in me!!! And when I woke up today I sounded like frikkin Inday Garutay.

I hope I miraculously get well tomorrow morning. Philippine Air Force here I comeeeee! Please don't immediately assume I have swine flu.

CRAP.

2009-06-30T20:12:00.004+08:00

I was thiiis close to it. Crap. Passed the exam, made it to the initial interview and briefings.. Crap. Considering that I prefer Cathay over PAL.. Crap.

Nakarma ako kase may inaway ako the other night haha BWISET TALAGAAAAAAAA. X-( Nakarma din ako because I kept saying na I won't wait for PAL anymore. Tapos sa PAL pa ako umabot sa susunod na step. I was really rooting for Cathay since they obviously had better benefits than PAL. And it doesn't help that my cough and colds only seem to be worsening with every pop of Decolgen and Biogesic. This is CRAAAAAAAAP! KMN.

Thank God for FarmVille!!!!!

2009-06-30T10:46:00.001+08:00

It's official. GMA 7's reporters SUCK so bad it embarasses me.

First, the Michael Fajatin "scandal." I don't have to say more, cos this is self-explanatory. Sunod naman yung kay Jiggy Manicad. Yes, that prick who manipulated interviews here and there so that his story would come off with a negative impression, humiliating my father in front of everybody.

And last night, I discovered the latest addition to their comedic circle. Apparently, their "Serbisyong Totoo" news team has someone who can't even properly pronounce words. Beat It is "Birit" and Raspberry Ice Cream is RAPSBERRY Ice Cream?

Tsktsk. Shame.

2009-06-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

Larry, Lloyd and me taken by Joel Garcia outside Fullybooked, High Street. DPP's anniversary celebration was quite interesting. Aside from the free food and booze, the afterparty was the most fun part, with a drunk Nick Tuason officially declaring that iMag sucks. Hahahaha.

Joel also took the photo of Brandon Boyd seen on the cover of Digital Photographer Philippines' issue 26.

I never realized my undereye was that dark that time! My eyeliner smudged giving me instant terrible eyebags which lasted for a whole day. And I didn't even notice. Great.

I was victorious(!) in finding something from Topshop and it's that white top I'm wearing in the photo above.

2009-06-29T00:56:00.005+08:00

And now I have fever. *DUN DUN DUN DUN* Who wants a hug from me???

You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.
You don't exist.

CHOOSE WISELY

2009-06-28T23:40:00.005+08:00

Hooters virgin no more! I've been hearing a lot of good things about the place. Aside from the waitresses who wear really skimpy outfits, they say the food is really good. I might actually have to go back, though since I was only able to try the chicken wings and the caramel cheesecake things:

Not a big fan of the chicken since it was too spicy for my taste, but I fell in love with the cheesecake! Although I think stuff here are a bit overpriced. There I also tried the infamous Grey Goose [Blame it on the goose, got you feeling loose Yes, that one.] which costs 420 a glass.. And its not even a real glass; it's served in small cocktails and if not for the disgustingly bitter taste of this overpriced, insanely expensive, imported vodka I would've finished all of it in one gulp. They were right. There are better-tasting, cheaper vodkas out there.

The morning after, my nose was dripping like a mother and my throat kind of sore. Swine flu isdatchu?

Someone has to slam my head fifty times against a wall. I have been acting immensely stupid lately and I have to go back to normal before regretful, irrepairable things happen.

Last Friday

2009-06-28T23:24:00.006+08:00

The Twister Fries, in all its twisted glory. I was really trying to stop myself from ordering some, but in the end I was [expectedly] defeated by hunger and the nostalgic feeling I get just by merely seeing Twister Fries and a McFlurry. I remember back in highschool, I would go almost everyday to the now non-existent McDo near our school after my classes to devour these greasy edible strings and an oreo McFlurry. They were always a duo--one cannot go without the other. I think, more than the limited time offer marketing strategy, it's the familiar memories that make it hard for me to resist Twister Fries even if it now costs 60 motherfuckin pesos.

2009-06-27T08:18:00.003+08:00

Why does my nose drip everytime I wake up??? Regardless if it's in the morning or in the afternoon, it's always runny whenever I resurrect myself after dozing off. Could it be allregic rhinitis? I can't find anything on the interwebz. I don't want to go to the doctor either.

And why is Chris Brown with P. Diddy, etc. in this Michael Jackson tribute song? Kala ko galit sila??

2009-06-26T22:46:00.004+08:00

I myself don't understand why I'm being unreasonably mean to you lately.

Hay..

On the other hand, I'm veeeerrryyyy excited to find something in Topshop tomorrow, and have been thinking about it the whole day. I hope I don't overspend. *fingers and toes crossed*

Sobrang ganda ng Tayong Dalawa! Parang hindi pumapangit? I swear this by far is the best teleserye I've seen since.. Umm.. I can't even remember what comes close to it! Sobrang galing ni Ramon at Je-arr. Kbye.

Mike's Apartment - Bad Mouth

2009-06-26T15:51:00.004+08:00

It's OPM! I like this song particularly because of this:

So now, just shut your mouth/ Baby, change your ways/ And all the shit you say/ Or else I’ll either die or waste away in sorrow/ With what comes out of your bad mouth

Makes me want to shove those lyrics in her face. This person has such bad mouth; it's like she doesn't think if whatever would come out of it would be destructive or not. Or maybe she does and is just deliberately making it ANNOYING and VERY VERY IRRITATING.

What I hate the most is how I/ we now are the ones who look bad because of all the negativity she's been spreading like a plague. BV to the highest extent!

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

2009-06-26T09:42:00.010+08:00

Megan Fox is too hot and I would non-hesitantly go lesbian for her any time of the day.

Transformers 2 isn't in 3d nor 2d format, but iMax still gave us the bang for our 400-peso buck and as a first-timer, I'm very satisfied. I can already imagine how super thrilling watching a 3d film in iMax would be.

I want to watch Transformers again!!! I watched the first one three[?] times in different theaters. That's how amazed I was, considering that I was just forced by my cousins to watch during the first time. I have to agree to most people, though, when they say that the 1st one is the better movie. But this one is great nonetheless. Minus the near-death experience with the robots part. MEDYO NALABUAN AKO DON. :|

We had dinner at Tokyo Cafe as we waited for the screening time. This is easily my favorite place to eat at the moment. I loooove their burger steaks and the Japanese carbonara! I heard that their desserts are must-tries too.

My brother, who I watched with last night along with Larry and kuya Randy, is still down with the flu. I feel bad seeing him try his best to stop coughing inside the theater, at the same time afraid that people might think he has swine flu. Hhahahaha.

RIP Michael Jackson. And Farah Fawcett, tho I never really knew who you were.

2009-06-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO CHANGE MY LAYOUT BUT I'M TINATAMAD. ACKK.. MED.

2009-06-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

I MISS YOU EVERYDAY.

Grace..

2009-06-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

is Tumbling but vows to never ever abandon this Blogspot ever!

2009-05-29T01:00:00.003+08:00

Is it just me, or are people who obviously lie about something to make themselves look better [or atleast, that's what they think] really, really I-want-to-choke-you-outta-your-senses annoying? Do you really need to tell the whole world when you think someone is insecure about you, or when you're asked to be this something for this something with the intention that people will know you're good at it? Honestly! Nobody cares but your momma. Jezus.

2009-05-28T17:22:00.001+08:00

American Idol Season 8 Finale

2009-05-21T22:37:00.010+08:00

Never ako naging fan ng AI and I rarely watch kahit finale na, but I must say that this one was awesome! Not that I've seen last season's and the seasons before that, but..

Jason Mraz and Anoop Desai. I think I lost my breath at that moment. ♥

My favorite finalist performance that night: Kris Allen with Keith Urban singing Kiss A Girl.

I fell in love with the song right away! Pero srsly, Keith Urban & Kris Allen against Kiss & Adam Lambert? I wouldn't even know who Keith Urban is had he not been Nicole Kidman's boyfriend. Or is he his husband?

Kara and Katrina FTMFW. Just one of the many highlights of the night.

And speaking of highlights, I think they kinda overdid it with Adam & Kiss. Kase naman sobrang simple nung kay Kris Allen & Keith Urban sabay may fireworks galore kay Adam? Pero sabagay mas maganda naman yung kanta ni Kris compared to.. What did he even sing? I think I just heard lots of high-pitched wailing like what he does each week.

Am I the only one who thinks Kiss is scary? Particularly, this guy who keeps sticking his tongue out. I mean, I know their make-ups are what they're famous for, but seriously, I would twitch and squint and scream whenever the camera was on him. He would make for a perfect horror movie villain.

I LOOOOVED Lil Rounds' shoes when she performed with Queen Latifah, as well as Fergie's shoes when she sang with the rest of BEP! I want shoes exactly like those but I just couldn't find photos!

And speaking of shoes, wtf was up with Lambert's?

I srsly think these platforms are the reasons why he didn't win.

Bromance galore. Kbai.

2009-05-19T00:03:00.001+08:00

Iba na ngayon.
May lakas ng loob na tayong pagtaasan ng boses ang isa't-isa.
Ganun ba talaga?

2009-04-01T02:37:00.000+08:00

Wow. It's times like this when words are needed the most that I am at a loss.

I am not surprised that I have digested all of this by now, being the strong person that I think I am.

Or have I? Am I? Maybe it just hasn't totally stricken me yet. Or maybe I got so used to getting fucked up that I take this as it goes and just be passive. Absorbent like a sponge. Taking it all in without hesitation because I know that, after all, this is how life goes, and getting fucked up is what coexists with our existence.

There's a fifty-fifty possibility that you might not be able to talk audibly anymore. As expected, you only know what you've got til it's gone, so I am, quite ironically, talking to you more now that you're already struggling to speak. Though I am too proud to even mentally admit, I regret not paying too much attention to you everytime you would come to our house just to check how I am, if I am already up, have taken a bath, have eaten, what I was doing. I am the one who deserves to be bedridden, for I am the ungrateful one who gets irritated of your over-concern: when you would endlessly bug me to eat lunch, or talk to me about stuff I thought I was not interested in.

I have always known that I should be spending more time with you. I did not know it HAD to be this soon.

I will never get tired taking care of you just as you are never tired of looking out for me every single day.

I'm sorry for everything.

2009-03-17T11:39:00.002+08:00

Fanning the flames, adding insult to injury.. Ugali mo yan eh.
And of all the people, you choose to do that to your family.
You think your verbal lashing teaches a lesson? It just leaves us scarred for life.
In my case, I still feel traumatized up to now.

I wish I could choose my relatives. I have a few I want to trade in with my friends who act better than my own family.

Inconsolable :(

2009-03-16T11:47:00.001+08:00

Just because you're older, it doesn't mean you're ALWAYS right.

I hate you.

2009-02-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

Well, I fucked up our Valentine's date pretty bad. And you know what he revenged me with?

Nothing but unconditional love and never-ending forgiveness.

It's impossible for me to find another who could stick with me the way he does. It would take me a hundred lifetimes, all over again. So maybe my retarded head could start getting a grip and stop fucking things up every other time.

2009-02-09T19:16:00.002+08:00

I told him a secret I've been keeping from everyone I know ever since I had the capacity to become aware of this world we're living in. A part of me feels emacipatingly relieved. But there are still little pieces of fear that he might, someday, leave me because of it. Even though I am assured he won't.

Silly me.

WTF Happened?! :))

2009-02-04T13:31:00.000+08:00

I am, for the first time after a long time, excited about the product of Capitalism that is fricken Valentine's Day.

Can we just fast forward to it pleeeease.

So, I Don't Have Anything To Do..

2009-01-30T12:01:00.002+08:00

My Lakbayan grade is C!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

2009-01-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

LIAR.

Just Doing My Part

2009-01-20T10:45:00.000+08:00

Again, if you're too cool to care and you're exhausted at the sight of another write-up such as this.. If you're itching to ask why there is a need to be concerned when what's happening with the Palestinians do not directly affect you anyways...

You're most probably searching for self-centered reasons, so get this: What if we were the ones in their shoes?

What if we were the ones being violently deprived of a territory when it is every citizen's and every nation's right to begin with?

What if it was you who was robbed of equality and rightful existence?

What if it was your child, or your parent, or your little brother or sister who's among the thousands of innocent civilians already killed?

What if you were just as unlucky as them, being in the middle of a war you wished you would never again be in?

They don't sleep nor eat, and can't even live a normal life anymore. If, just like them, you are already as hopeless as everyone you know, wouldn't you want to just be rescued, or even a little bit relieved, as soon as possible from the holocaust they're in?

And to add an even selfish-er reason, would you want oil prices to skyrocket again???

It is indeed very difficult to put an end to a conflict so seemingly unresolvable, and so old we've tackled this in our West Asian history, but all the same, we have to do our part. That is, if what you want to live in is a peaceful world.

For crying out loud, this isn't even a civilians' war in the first place yet they're the prominent victims of this killing spree! What do these unarmed people have against the 4th strongest military force in the world?? They have their slingshots, that's all. The fact that murder is just wrong in so many levels is already a justifiable reason to be completely against this oppression.

As if dead civilians aren't terrible enough, even the volunteers who come to help are either killed as well, or if lucky enough, just chopped off of a limb. Hospitals and evacuation centers are bombed, and relief goods from the outside are blocked from entering Gaza.

Sure, some of them might have escaped from dying the M-16 way, but they're not far from dying of starvation and/or chronic sickness.

Do you sense total annihilation, too?

If the Hamas and the Israelite military have no intentions of settling their conflicts in a peaceful, diplomatic manner, atleast spare the innocent ones ESPECIALLY the children from this inhumanity. They can go on bombing til the United States run out of armory supplies to Israel, just PLEASE stop the relief blockade, and stop destroying what SHOULDN'T be destroyed.

Being aware is the first step. The next act to take is yours. All they ask for is our voice, so do your part no matter how small you think it may be. Pray, as a little can go a long way. If you are interested and gutsy enough, join a protest expressing how much you abhor what's happening in Gaza right now, similar to what a school in London did. For an easier yet effective alternative, write down your concerns, put it out on the internet or send it directly to our government officials locally, in Israel, or wherever else and who knows, pag marami ng sumulat it'll get their attention and they'll find a way, probably an anti-war resolution or something like that. You will not lose anything by being concerned for these people who VERY BADLY need every help they can get right now.

Our country has its own unsolved problems to worry about, but if you come to think about it, Israel's story is mortifyingly similar to the Mindanao issue, as both are fighting for their territorial claims. This chaos just might affect us one way or another, in the long run, more than we think. Hence, we should be thankful that we are not yet? where they are now by trying to help them get out of it. Or atleast being concerned.

Just doin my part.

http://khamees.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!860CE9D0DC09D9B7!604.entry

2009-01-16T10:40:00.002+08:00

Stupid Facebook news feed! Her face is still plastered on my inbox. I hate it hahahaha. But not as much as I hated it yesterday. I cried it all out last night so, yeah.. Don't think you're that important just cause I cried over you.. I'm 90% sure this is just PMS. The remaining 10 is cause I'm really pissed off and you're nowhere near where I can punch you in the face so I just cried.

Nothing ticks me off more than a trashy friend.

2009-01-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

Ang epal mo. Pasalamat ka..

NAKU.

2009-01-04T16:53:00.001+08:00

I'm resigning tomorrow. Without intending to be rude I think this was a decision I should've done long ago [yuck parang ang tagal na eh 2 months pa lang naman].

Anyway. Now what do I do next..

I Swore I Wouldn't Eat Ham Because I Thought I Dint Like It But I Ended Up Eating Everything I Said. And I Seem to Have Said A Lot.

2009-01-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

My goodness the world is so damn small. At yung ibang tao talaga, hindi talaga nagbabago. Which could've been nice, except hindi kase nakakatuwa yung ugali nyang ayaw baguhin.

Tangina. Makakahanap ka din ng katapat mo. At as much as I want it to be me, eh ewan.. Pero pag nainis na talaga ko mag-iisip na talaga ko ng strategy. Gusto kita pabagsakin hahaha ganti lang kahit wala naman na talaga kong balak gumanti kase di na ko galit pero it feels fulfilling, in some curious way.

+++

Yung aso ko kinalbo! Haha he looks like a totally different dog. Go check in my Multiply if you have nothing better to do.

Define Karma

2009-01-03T00:40:00.002+08:00

Ayan kase ang sama ng ugali ko! Lesson learned: wag sasakay ng airport taxi unless matter of life and death na talaga at wala ka ng choice. Bakit? Flag down rate: 70php. +4php per 300 meters. San ka pa. Para kong nakarating ng Pampanga sa binayad ko. Amputa.

Kanina nagiinarte ako kase wala lang. Maarte ako eh. :)

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1: Hoy viniew ako ng crush mong chipipay.
2: Sino? Si Valerie?
1: Hinde mas cheap pa dun.
2: Hahaha sino, si Maja?
1: Haha mas chipipay pa don!!!

Ayokong viniview ng mga ayoko!!! Cheeeee! Ako lang pwede mag-view sa inyo. :P

Grabe sobrang bad vibes ng first day of the year ko. What is me.

2009-01-01T21:36:00.001+08:00

Dahil ba natulog ako kagabi ibig sabihin matutulog ako buong taon?

~~Happy~~ New Year ha!!

I Just Had the Best Christmas Everrrrrr.

2008-12-26T16:50:00.004+08:00

What I know is he'll be spending his Christmas with his relatives in Fairview.

I was in church and he was calling, I kept rejecting it. I answered one just to quickly say that I'm still hearing mass. Right after it, I called him and asked where he was, worried that he might still be on his way to Fairview because it was already past 11 pm. To my surprise, I was hearing the same background from our church, on his phone end. Hahaha. Tapos ayun pala sha sa tapat ng church, waiting for me.

He spent his Christmas Eve and Christmas Day here, just like what I was hoping for before he made-up the story that he was supposed to be in Fairview during those days.

I asked for a letter from him as a Christmas gift and he gave me drawings he made. They're harder to make, but I really wanted a letter. He eventually made a digital one, which was fair enough. Spending Christmas with me more than made up for it. :)

Happy Holidays! I'm gonna have to delete that countdown timer now.

PATHETIC.

2008-12-23T09:51:00.001+08:00

I think that the world is so effin small, that not only that the chance of meeting common denominators is heightened, but it also seems it is shrinking so damn faster by the minute that she runs out of things to do and say and just copies mine! I KNOW, AMAZING, RIGHT???????

PUTA. How often have I said that I hate copycats?? Wala kang utak. O baka kung gano ka kaliit ganun din kaliit utak mo.

Life Is Short, Way Shorter Than You Thought.

2008-12-22T17:01:00.001+08:00

Farewell Senor Obusan. You will always be the grandfather we all never had.

This is another hard one to digest. :(

2008-12-11T12:20:00.000+08:00

tangenaaaaaa nakakaiyak yung Gossip Girllll!

Chuck needs a hug! :((

2008-12-10T12:45:00.004+08:00

Kawawa naman si de la Hoya. Sa sobrang pagka-olats nung nangyari sa kanya feeling ng iba dinaya nya yung laro, na binayaran sha or malaki kinita nya para lang maging in favor kay Pacquiao yung laban. Hahahahaha. Ganun sha ka-walang nagawa. Akala ng iba umaarte lang sha kase hindi man lang sha makasuntok. Insulto ampota. Kala ko din nung una baka nga staged yung nangyari pero naisip ko, yung makukuha nyang pera [if ever fixed nga yung laro] eh barya lang yun sakanya. As a boxing legend, I don't think na papayag sha with all willingness na masira yung reputation nya for 17million [?] lang, sa ganung paraan pa. Wala sha talagang nagawa eh.

Saka sino ba naman papayag na ma-deform mukha nya for whatever amount? Siguro kung 10 billion yun payag ako. Haha. Anyway.

TONGUE RING HERE I COMEEEEE [again!]! Wish me luck. Kinakabahan ako kase bukod sa panibagong butas nanaman, eh ngayon walang halong emotion.. As in dahil lang sa gusto ko, hindi tainted and/or influenced ng galit at pagka-emo [unlike before] na nagpapalakas ng loob ko. Kaya GOODLUCKSANAHINDIAKOHIMATAYIN.

If This Isn't Heaven, I Don't Know What Is.

2008-12-09T13:38:00.001+08:00

2008-12-01T12:15:00.003+08:00

my M.A. in Jap Studies dream is drifting away.

2008-11-27T08:32:00.001+08:00

Twilight was not bad at all. I wonder what year them guys from rottentomatoes are from. Konting positivity naman please.

Happy birthday to meeeeeee! I got a gazillion chocolate today, ilovet! THANK YOU LORD FOR ANOTHER YEAR, particularly this year! :)

2008-11-24T19:14:00.002+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAAADGHJFGSHFGHGDFJHDGF!

binili ni larry yung Debenhams na top. birthday gift. may kasama pang penguin na chocolate. shetmygad. as in nung nakita ko ganito ichura ko: :O :O :O :O :O

sabi ko na eh this is the best birthday ever. actually kahit wala na yung gifts masasabi ko na din yan. shetshetshetshet im so not worthy! kaso parang nagguilty ako kase kasama ko sha nung nakita ko yan tas nakita nya kung gano ko kadepressed dahil di ko nanaman nabili yung gusto ko. haha. nakakaguilty kase ang mahal. :-s ang mahal magmahal talaga! haha.

sheeeeeeeet.

Lord i'm not worthy!!!

NAIINIS AKO NG SOBRA SOBRA.

2008-11-22T10:51:00.006+08:00

First, the Chris Brown concert. Now, that damn top from Debenhams.

I am enslaved by things material therefore finite. Funny cause I am seriously depressed right now. So apparently it's not as superficial as it seems.

Pathetic.

This is probably not a good month for me, considering other stuff that happened in the first few weeks which are not so much in my favor. Can I just skip this birthday week and proceed to Christmas month already?

As much as I want to keep counting my blessings.. I don't know. It all makes me feel like I don't deserve anything from anyone. Like I have to earn everything that I want for myself.

**edit:

This is that stupid thing from Debenhams I've been moping over since yesterday. I swear it looks much nicer in person [and on me]. I HATE IT!!!

CLICK NYO TO ANG GANDA.

2008-11-21T14:34:00.001+08:00

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Palawan.

2008-11-21T11:32:00.002+08:00

"It is a hanging promise, an insatiable dream--to be able to go back [to the most beautiful place on earth]."

2008-11-19T14:33:00.005+08:00

a few of the gazillion kicks that i reaaaaally like and will also most probably reaaaally not have considering my bank account at the moment. and it's not like i have one. so, yeah. figureitouttttttttt.

and, one of the few reasons why i love my boyfriend so much.

HAHAHAHA.

The Loneliness.

2008-11-19T13:43:00.001+08:00

Last night I drove by a carinderia, almost deserted except for this man with 5 Red Horse bottles down [and still counting], singing his lungs out with the videoke..

I wondered.

I'm So Bored I hsiudfhasufhasduifh While Typing This.

2008-11-17T15:22:00.002+08:00

HILARIOUS MUST-SEES:

http://totallylookslike.com
http://failblog.org
http://engrishfunny.com
http://icanhascheezburger.com

if the main entries aren't funny, try the readers comments.

2008-11-17T09:11:00.001+08:00

friendster just gave me a million's worth of reasons not to use my accounts anymore.

-

surprisingly, i'm not as inggit as i thought i would be.

here are my insights before going to sleep last night:
i will probably be mourning for a week because i didn't see gaddamn chris brown. which is sad and pathetic. or pathetic and sad. either way, i still missed the concert.

LAAAAAAME.

ihatework.

Birthday Wishlist

2008-11-14T11:34:00.004+08:00

dito ko na lang ipopost kase pag sa multiply mukhang nagpapafish.. which is actually true. hahaha.

dahil gahaman ako sa Baileys:
- Baileys Mint Chocolate
- Baileys Creme Caramel
pwede na din yung Original..
or Baileys cake sa Goldilocks. :D

- Si Inggolok at Ang Planeta Pakaskas book
- plaids/ checkered na top. kahit anong kulay hindi naman ako choosy. basta maganda. haha.
- M&Ms na white chocolate. kaso imposible na mashado yun dahil wala naman nun dito.
- madami pang booooooots. hala naadik na ko. kasi eh.
- Dulce de Leche ice cream
- high Dunks/ Dunks SB, extra high AF1s, high Vandals, high Blazers lahat na ng high ng Nike!!! hahaha saka Bape Roadstas, kahit ano jan di naman nga ako choosy. :P
- SkullCandy
- lens. kahit ano basta bago nakakaawa na kasi yung lens ko tanggal na yung knob ng focus. hahaha.

meron pa yan iisipin ko muna.. kelan kaya ko makakabili ng kahit isa jan sa mga yan.
I'M SO POOR I SWEAR TO GOD.

..is in doubt.

2008-11-13T13:47:00.001+08:00

~~so much doubt.~~

Hindi Na Ko Bum.

2008-10-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

EH DI KINAIN KO DIN LAHAT NG SINABI KO.
EH DI NAGPADALA DIN AKO.

Hey HO Let's Go!

2008-10-06T15:09:00.000+08:00

AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU EITHER FOCUS ON WHAT'S KEEPING YOU TOGETHER, OR WHAT'S TEARING YOU APART. [CJ]

The less you talk, the less mistakes you make.

And oh, please don't talk behind my back [especially because I don't do that to you]. Please have the face to stand for what comes out your mouth.

K? K! :D